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    A Life I Never Meant Chapter Fourteen

    Story written on June 29, 2006 by citygirl75.
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    “I know. I saw her.” – Tina Kennard.

    “She lets you in though.”

    “But I’m not after her heart.”

    “I won’t be able to say no to her.”

    “Maybe you won’t have to. Maybe you really are better off apart, but neither of you are better off with all this…ambiguity.”

    “I would ask you what you think I should do but…”

    “You know me better than that.” laughs Shane.

    “Yeah, it wouldn’t make any difference how strongly you felt either way. You would just say something like, only you can make that decision.”

    “Well, only you can.”

    “I’m sorry, you’re caught up in the middle of this when you should be trying to get better. That must be difficult enough without me adding to the burden.”

    “The only thing that’s difficult about it is…I want the best for both of you but you can only get their by yourselves, or maybe together. I can listen to you both and try to tell you what I think is best but my influence only stretches so far before it all comes down to you and Bette.”

    “Has Alice spoken to you much about Dana?”

    “The two of you, you don’t even segue into a different topic, you just change course completely.”

    “I actually learnt at the Bette Porter school of unsubtle changes of subjects.” I say, smiling.

    “No kidding. Anyway, she talked a little about Dana the other day when she was here. Why?”

    “Did she say that she was going to go to the cemetery?”

    “I think that she’s considering it, some of it depended on how things went with Bette, but as that seems to have gone well, then I would presume that she will, while she’s here.”

    “Maybe I should stay until she’s been.”

    “Maybe you should stay until you’ve spoken to Bette.” replies Shane, in a tone of voice that tells me how she really feels on the subject.

    “I already confirmed my return flight.” I say, barely above a whisper.

    “For when, and why didn’t you tell me this earlier?”

    “The day after tomorrow, and I wanted to know what you really felt. There’s still time Shane, all of tomorrow. I think that part of me needed to give myself a deadline otherwise the indecision was going to drag on and on, and that’s not good for anyone.”

    “But what if you and Bette decide that you want to get back together, would you still go back.”

    “Shane, no-one is aware more that me that I haven’t always behaved admirably in all of this, but to try and redress that balance I would go back to talk to Ally, face to face, regardless of what comes out of any conversation that Bette and I have.”

    “It would also give you some time to think about the consequences.”

    “Exactly. Look I should go and you should get some rest. You look tired.”

    Shane nods her ascent as I get up from my chair. I walk towards to the door before I hear Shane call out to me.

    “Tina”

    “Yeah.”

    “What ever happens, whatever you both decide. Just know that I’ll always be there, to help you when you need me.”

    “I don’t deserve a friend like you.” I say, as I turn to walk down the hallway away from Shane’s room.

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    3. Love is not about Safe…..is exactly the opposite, you gamble a part of your life everytime you make a decision, you can win or you can loose,but when you win, OMFG….And I don´t think Ally would like to be with Tina because she is the “safer” choice. This is a wonderfull history, thank you very much for sharing it with us. a humble reader and loyal fan.

    10. The option is to love whom you love or who loves you. Everyone has different reason to choose. And, I feel sorry to say this: Tina, forget Ally, she is great, but Bette is the one.

    11. The entire damn mess makes sense to me now thru Tina’s (your) commentary.I like how you have the anvil not falling too hard on either of their heads. Reflective honesty. If she truly can’t get passed”working so hard that the quicksand won’t happen again” then Tina really should let Bette go”. Carnage is a harsh term but if Tina truly feels that way she’s better off playing it “safe” with Ally. Poor Ally. Bette deserves a fresh start and Tina at this point seems seriously Bette fatigued. Tho i can’t tell if she’s being pragmatic or just tired of thinking about it. What are you doing tonight? More please…. This fwas an excellent chapter in a great story. Sue

    12. I suppose I can forgive Tina’s avoidance of Bette on this occasion. Moments like that can be quite a jolt. But she needs to get her shit together and talk to Bette, just like Shane was saying.

    13. Your story is amazing – the pace the wanting and the fear of rejection and taking the wrong path – just awesome how you are laying it all out. and letting Alice be wise is a stroke of genius – life seasons people and loss and you have written this really well. Thank you for sharing your figts with us.

    14. So sorry – that’s sharing your GIFTS – your wonderful marvelous writing with us- the phone rang as I was typing and I jumped sky high and just hit send . Again, thanks

    15. I think Ally will leave Tina whether Tina chooses her or not, cause this is a make or break deal. Ally knows this that’s why she is puching for tina to talk to Bette. Ally is a smart girl and knows that Tina is more safe with her than anything else. Ally does not strike me as the type to “settle” on being a safe choice with anyone. Tina needs to stop being a pussy and just talk to Bette. Bette needs to get off the “woe is me” express and step back into reality and talk to tina. Still don’t want a Tibette reunion but who knows I may change my mind. Post soon!

    17. i understand why tina wants to keep it safe but this is not what love is all about..i hope talking to bette will help her to see that she and bette belong together

    20. Safe is not always what it is cracked up to be. If Tina stays with Ally that safe will turn into longing and then depression. You can already tell that Tina is scared because just one look and she is already beginning to unravel. I already get the impression that Bette desperately wants Tina back and hope that Tina will eventually want to return to Bette. Do I get to dream so that my tibette heart still has the chance to beat strongly again.

    21. So, Tina will use Alice/Dana as her justification for staying. So, the return ticket is already bought. Tina always has a back channel, back burner going, doesn’t she? Does Ally know what she is getting into? I think it is patently clear which way Shane wants this to go. Whether it will, it remains to be seen, and that’s the beauty of your fanfic. Thanks!

    23. If Tina returns to NY before talking to Bette, whatever that outcome may be, she’ll never get the closure she thinks she may have by escaping back to her girlfriend. Wonderful dialogue between Shane and Tina. Looking forward to the next chapter.

    24. I’m so enjoying your thoughtful, intelligent approach to this story. It’s truly heart-wrenching to read but always leaves me anxious to read your next chapter. Thanks for sharing it!

    26. Please don’t let anything be wrong with Shane. That wince of pain was far too ominous. Love your writing and cannot wait to read your telling of B&T’s reunion (B&T together forever PLEASE :)). Great chapter, thanks city

    32. I echo what others have said about being “safe.” If I wanted to be “safe,” I would have never admitted to myself that I’m gay and I’d still be in a relationship with a guy who makes watching paint dry on a wall sound like fun. It’s great to feel safe when you find the one and know they’d never intentionally hurt you, but playing it safe is bad.

    34. I’m jumping on the bandwagon that Tina NEEDS to talk with Bette. Its obvious she still has felings for me Bette that is why she is ducking and diving. They both need to love each other like they never been hurt; put it out in the open and wipe the slate clean. Nobody wants to be with someone just to say you have someone- there needs to be love and a connection, not just some safety blanket b/c you’re afraid you’re heart will be broken again.

    35. This is killing me, Tina soo Belongs to Bette and she could never go back to Ally as she will always think what if, please make her see sense

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