As Sure As The Sun

Ch 8

I think Carmen took my wanting separate rooms the wrong way. She didn’t understand that she needed to try to remember on her own. She is so convinced that she is in competition with what she calls her old real self. I didn’t know how she felt inside. I couldn’t judge her. every time I tried to talk her over the weekend she would change the subject or try to seduce me. And I hurt her more when I didn’t respond to her advances. What she didn’t know was how hard it was for me to do that. I wanted nothing more than to lock myself away with her but we had work to do. Jimmie made this all possible and I couldn’t let him down.

If not for Jimmie, Carmen would be really dead. I owed him and I pay my dues.

I tried last night to talk to her but she wasn’t home. I looked for her everywhere I was allowed. when I couldn’t find her in any of the complexes. I had to ask Jeff, the handler who trailed me around if he knew where I could find her. He told me to check the gym.

So this is me walking to the gym with my handler Jeff.

Jeff liked football, long walks on the beach and chicken / waffle places. I figured if he was gonna tail me around the least we could do is try to have a civil relationship. He walks me over to the gym and I see Carmen pissed as hell….sweating like a dog…punching …a punching bag. I tell Jeff to wait outside so I could talk to her in private. He gives me this look like you know how chicks are.

I felt like a gladiator getting ready to face a lion.

“Can we talk?”

“So now you want to talk….Shane I don’t know….I’m kinda busy now…” Punch, Punch, Kick.

“You are mad. I know you. I know how you are when you get mad.”