Bette had just left Shanes. She felt a sense of relief she had at least discussed things with Shane. Bette was also more than flattered that Shane had such strong feelings for her. She didnt want to dwell on it, but if she were honest with herself she would admit that Shane thinking so much of her made her feel special. For whatever reason, Bette always worked so hard for other peoples approval, and to have Shane hold her in such high regard somehow boosted her ego. As soon as that thought crossed her mind Bette quickly reminded herself that Tina, and her approval of her was more than enough. Friends and friends only, thats all it is with Shane. Ive got my T back and nothing else matters.


As Bette rounded the corner to their house she noticed that Tina had beat her home. She was a little disappointed because she didnt want the surprise to be ruined. She quickly approached the door and noticed it was really dark.

Bette made her way into the house and noticed a dim light down the hall coming from the bedroom. A slow smile appeared on her face. She made it to the bedroom door in what seemed like milliseconds. Her haste would be rewarded. She walked in and was met with the most beautiful vision she had ever seen. Her heart stopped. It literally refused to beat. The smile she had so happily worn dissipated and her gaze was filled with awe, longing, and love. She couldnt take her eyes off of Tina and she couldnt move either. The floor wouldnt let go of her feet. She was frozen. Tina had on a silk robe and nothing else. She was rubbing cream on her legs and her robe was losing its grip on her body. Tina heard Bette as she approached the room. Because Bette hadnt said anything she finally looked up and quickly noticed Bettes expression. Tina saw the love in her eyes and it warmed her heart”her eyes filled with tears at the fact that with a look Bette could make her feel more loved than she ever had. Bette quickly grabbed the dresser because her knees were beginning to weaken. She wanted this vision and this moment to last forever, but she knew all to well that moments are meant to live short lives. Bette came back to herself. Dont move T stay just like that, please. Bette quickly ran back to the dinning room and grabbed her camera and ran back to the bedroom. The way the candlelight seemed to dance upon Tinas skin inspired Bette to want to freeze that vision. Bette quickly started snapping pictures of Tina. Babe what are you doing? T Im taking your picture. You look absolutely breathtakingly beautiful and I just want to freeze this image forever. Babe I just got out of the shower I dont think this particular image of me is very appealing. T trust me, you are the most beautiful woman on earth and Ill have the pictures to prove it if you just hold on a few more seconds. Babe where are we going to put those”I dont want anyone to see them. T these will be great, believe me. You are a work of art but lets not concern ourselves with that now just let me take a few more okay? Fine babe. Tina chuckled she couldnt believe that Bette was so mesmerized.

Bette quickly snapped a few more shots and stopped in her tracks. Just taking the photos noticing every little nuance of light and shadow dance upon Tinas skin and the colors of the rose petals as they reflected off of her, had really worked Bette up. She tried to slow herself down but she raced to the bed and hungrily attacked Tinas mouth with her own. She had taken Tina by complete surprise but Tina loved it. Bette frantically began removing her clothes she couldnt get them off fast enough. She couldnt get close enough to Tina. Bette was filled with an urgency she had never known. She was inundated with so much desire and emotion she didnt know what to do. She thought, What can I do so she feels what I feel for her? Words cant express it and a thousand love making sessions wont do either. I cant get close enough to her. Bette felt overwhelming inadequate and as quickly as she had began her onslaught of kisses she abruptly stopped. Warm tears filled her eyes and she felt sad and defeated. Tina breathlessly opened her eyes and looked at Bette. Feeling the absence of Bettes arms around her.

Tina: Babe whats wrong? Why are you crying?

Bette was too embarrassed to answer. Really how could she explain that what she felt was so powerful that it scared her? How could she tell Tina that she couldnt think of anything good enough or strong enough to convey all that she was feeling? She sat there and quietly wept. She wanted to get up and leave but she knew that wouldnt resolve anything”but what would? Bette finally spoke her words filled with so much love and melancholy she seemed so delicate.

Bette: T I want so much to please you. I need you to know how I feel. Im not so good at expressing myself and I dont know how to show you. It seems whatever I do, how many times I do it. It wont be good enough to express all of these overwhelming feelings I have for you. I could never kiss you long enough, soft enough, passionately enoughto show you what it really means. You deserve the very best and T Im not sure if youre getting it. I mean I try but whatever I do pales in comparison to what I truly feel. I can never get close enough.
Bette started to gently stroke Tinas arm.

Tina never thought she would see the day that Bette would be so open and to admit her fears of inadequacy. Tina had always harbored those feelings herself. She never quite thought she pleased Bette. Bette was such a good lover she often wondered if she pleased her nearly as much as she was pleased. She wondered if she was sufficient and of course when Bette had the affair it made Tina question herself all the more. But now to hear that Bette feels this too, it was shocking. Tina knew that Bette wasnt questioning her love- making skills as Tina often questioned her own. More than that Bette wondered if making love or telling Tina how much she loved her was enough to SHOW Tina her feelings. Tina laid there in the candlelight silent trying to think of the words to tell her lover that the fact she felt that way made her feel totally loved and completely satisfied. She touched Bettes hand. Bette stopped moving her hand across Tinas arm and looked away. She felt extraordinarily naked, more naked than she had ever felt before. She reached for her shirt that was laid over the rose petals on the bed. She quickly grabbed it and tried to cover herself. This didnt go unnoticed by Tina. She stopped Bettes hand and touched her face needing to look into her eyes. Bette turned away again. Her tears were accompanied by a barely audible cry. Tinas heart was broken.

Tina: Bette, babe, look at meplease.

Bette reluctantly turned around and didnt try to hide her tears. It was too late. She had gone to a place within herself she didnt know existed. A place where all she wanted, needed, and desired revolved solely on the love she felt for Tina. Only Tina could soothe the pain she felt and calm the fear she never intended to share.

Tina looked at the beautiful woman before her and saw a love so strong that she too began to weep. She leaned in and kissed Bettes tears away as warm tears ran from her eyes.

Bette: T dont cry. Im sorry. Its just sometimes this feeling is so much bigger than me and I feel too small a vessel to carry it. I dont know what to do with it. And whats worse the only thing I know to do”make love. It doesnt seem like enough and on top of it to share that with someone who isnt you. It makes me sick T that I ever betrayed you. This”us, making love; this is sacred”its all we have and I hate myself for sharing my body with someone else. T Im sorry, I have to go.
Bette quickly grabbed her shirt and jeans and stood from the bed.

Tina jumped up and headed Bette off at the door.

Tina: What? Bette youre crazy if you think Im going to let you leave this room. You cant say things so sweet and kind and just leave. As far as your infidelity is concerned you need to get past it. I have. It hurt like ***** to know those hands and that mouth that bring me so much pleasure have done the same for someone else. But Bette I honestly think were closer now than we ever have been so dont keep pushing me away. You say your feelings for me are strong, so why are you leaving? Cant you see I need you and I love you so much it hurts?

Tina began sobbing uncontrollable.

Bette ran to her side and embraced her. She held Tina tight in a long embrace. Tinas sobs subsided and Bette looked into her eyes and kissed her tears away. Tina began stroking Bettes back and grabbed her hand and led her back to their bed. Tina let the robe she was wearing fall to the floor and removed Bettes shirt she had managed to put back on. Bette backed up towards the head of the bed.

At first they just looked at one another with long loving gazes. Bette then slowly kissed Tinas mouth. She let her tongue enter Tinas mouth. Tina was immediately aroused by the kiss. Bette got up onto her knees and lead Tina to the head of the bed and laid her down. She began kissing Tinas neck and stroking her breast. She wanted this to last. She wanted it for the first time to be– enough.

She ran her hands down Tinas soft skin and found her core wet, warm, and inviting. She stroked the outside and Tina moaned.

Bette: Baby I want so much to show you how much I love you. Tell me what you want T I want to make you happy babe.
Tina: (with labored breaths) Bette all I want is you. All Ive ever wanted is you. I need you inside me babe. Please make love to me.

Bette: OK T.

Bette continued to stroke Tinas mound as she sucked on Tinas erect nipples. Tina was coming completely undone and didnt think she could take anymore.

Tina: BBette please I need you inside of me, now.

Bette place one finger inside of Tina and realized how wet she was. She quickly added a second finger and increased the rhythm of her thrusts. Tina began to ride Bettes hand Bette wanted to slow things down a bit so she halted Tinas bucking by slowing down the pace a bit. Tina opened her eyes to see Bette descend down her body. Bette kissed the insides of Tinas thighs and took in her essence she then sucked on Tinas ***** all the while keeping the slow pace of her finger thrusts in and out of Tina. Tina couldnt remember her name she was in a state of complete ecstasy. Bette knew she was about to come she curled her tongue and found the spot she knew would bring Tina over the edge.

Tina came hard. BBETTE babe I love youuuu, OH my God BetBette Bette didnt ease up she continued to lick, thrust, suck as Tina came again and again. Bette realized Tina was breathless so she looked up at her wife for a sign to see if she should continue. Tina kept rocking her hips so Bette continued until Tina let out a moan and her body began to shiver. I cantno more please. With that Tina stopped her rocking and pulled Bette up towards her.

Bette: Are you okay?

Tina: Wait let me

Tina: Baby that was amazing. Dont ever think that what you do isnt enough okay? Promise me Bette.

Bette: Ill try to keep that in mind.

Tina: Come here.