Part 1

„Wasn´t that Carmen in the car?”, Bette asked Tina as she drove into the driveway of their house.
“Yeah but she seemed to be in a hurry like the way she drove”, Tina responsed.
” I think they stayed to long in bed and she was late for work”, Bette laughed knowing that the couple used every single moment to be together.
“I just want to take a warm shower”, Tina said and closed the car door.
” If you´ll wait until I get Angelica into bed I´ll join you”, Bette looked grinning at Tina and held Angelica on her arms.
“Then I will wait for you”, Tina replied and kissed Bette passionately.
Angelica started to giggle and grabbed in between their faces.
“Hey”, Tina laughed and looked down to her daughter.
“Why are you interuppting your mommies”, she asked lovingly and caressed her small hands.
“Look over there, your auntie Shane is sitting on the stairs”, Bette noticed and tried to get Shane´s attention.
“Good evening, Shane”, she shouted over to her.
“Maybe she really doesn´t
hear you or she doesn´t want to hear you”, Tina mentioned looking over to Shane.
“She still seems to be high from Carmen”, she said smiling.
“Why don´t you try to get your hot ass inside and I´ll try to make you high”, Bette whispered into Tinas ear.
“You don´t need to try, honey”, Tina grinned and guided Bette with the almost sleeping Angelica on her arms into the house.

She always knew in the back of her mind that this would happen. But now that it happened it seemed unable to take in her mind. The words she said. The words she feared the most. They washed over her and let nothing left inside.
She was unable to move, unable to breath. The words just resounded in her head over and over again. She just saw her face, her beautiful face.

“She´s sleeping peacefully”, Bette said and embraced Tina from behind.
“It seems like she didn´t hear you scream even if I think that it was impossible”, Bette added and stroke Tina´s belly.
“Baby´s have a deep sleep, honey”, Tina smiled and enjoyed Bettes closeness.
“Bette?”
“Yes, darling”, Bette answeard and followed Tinas view out of the window.
“Is it just the trash can or is Shane still sitting outside?”, Tina asked wondering if it really was Shane.
“I think she would have turned at least one light on”, Bette said but was insecure about what she saw out there like Tina.
“Wait I will take a look outside”, she said and went to the front door to walk over to Jennys house.
“Shane?”, she called.
“What the **** is she doing there?”, Bette tought as she saw that it really was Shane.
“Hey Shane, what are you still doing outside? Didn´t you see us this evening?”, Bette asked as she walked infront of Shane.
Shane didn´t react. Her head hung low. She didn´t seem to notice that Bette was there.
“Shane come on let´s go inside”, Bette tried to talk to Shane.
She knew that something was wrong. She toughed Shanes shoulder. No reaction.
“What´s wrong, Shane? Don´t you feel good?”, Bette asked trying to get Shanes attation.
“Hey, babe what are you doing over there, come back in”, Tina shouted from the stairs of her own house.
“I´ll be right there”, Bette shouted back and turned her face to Shane again.
“Can you please tell me what´s wrong!” No answer again.
“Okay……don´t go away, I´ll be right
back”, Bette left and took a last concern look at Shane.
She was sitting there like a picture of misery.

“What the hell happened”, Bette thought as she walked into the living room to grab her cell.
“What´s going on, Bette?”, Tina asked confused.
“I don´t know either just that Shane is still sitting on her stairs and isn´t talking”, Bette replied while she held her cell to her ear. “****……” Bette hissed silently.
“Who do you wanna call?”
“Carmen, but her cell is off”
“Do you think they had a fight?”, Tina asked a little bit worried.
“I don´t know Tina….maybe, do you remember this afternoon, when we came back?”
“Yeah…Carmen was driving really fast and didn´t see us at all”, Tina tried to puzzle the whole situation together.
While they were figuring out what was wrong with Shane a car drove by and stopped in front of Jenny´s house.
“It´s Jenny”, Tina said as she took a look out of the window.
“I´ll go and tell her what´s going on”, Bette said and walked out of the door.

“Hey there”, Jenny greeted Shane.
Jenny kneed down in front of Shane and looked at her.
It really worried her what Bette told her just one minute ago and now she could see why.
“Let´s go inside”, she said simply and laid a hand on Shanes shoulder.
Shane looked up at her with empty eyes.
“Come on”, Jenny whispered and Shane stood up.

She put the beer bottle in front of Shane on the table and placed herself next to Shane on the sofa.
Both of them didn´t say a word.
Jenny knew that Shane needed her time and it was her decision to talk about what happened or not but it was clear that something had happened.
She just sat next to Shane like an invisible rock that Shane could lean on anytime she wanted.
After a while Shane looked up and turned to Jenny.
Jenny´s heart acked as she saw the pain and the torn in Shanes eyes, but she still kept quite.
Shanes eyes finally filled with tears. It was like a sweet release for her.
She was unable to cry the whole day since her world turned up side down.
Still Jenny kept quite and just looked with open and understanding eyes at her best friend.
“She chose her family”, Shane whispered, her voice sounded husky and cracky.
Jenny knew exactly what Shane was talking about but couldn´t believe it “I´m sorry, Shane.”
Right after Jenny said these words Shane lost herself an began to cry uncontrollably.