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    Missing. 10

    Story written on February 16, 2007 by New Dawn Fades.
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    Story Shortlink: https://www.assertive-maroon-jellyfish.104-250-143-187.cpanel.site/?p=64550
    Author Notes:

    You and me, what does that mean? Always, what does that mean?
    Forever, what does that mean? It means we’ll manage….

    Missing 10

     

     

    CH 21

     

    Suddenly. I am not in a rush. This is more than I wanted. It’s the most amazing feeling to know that I don’t have the weight of my world on me anymore. How to describe coming home? I guess the best I way I can sum it up is to say that this is no longer home. The times have changed around Bakersfield that’s for fucking sure. That thing that made it hard for me to sleep, to eat to dream, it just doesn’t matter anymore. That line I was walking is behind me. I feel free from it for the first time. This place it no longer means what it did. This place is just my past now.

     

     

    I have to be a realist about it though. I have to face the truth of the matter that says every once in a while it will get in. Its true and its ok. The thing is I don’t have to keep it in. I don’t have to pile things on top of it and wait to watch it burn. I don’t. And it’s a comforting thing to feel. Driving Carmen around all of our old haunts I realize that none of it mattered to me. None of matters to me. None of it. No more. Its done. Wow. What a feeling.

     

     

    Carmen chats a mile a minute about how boring this town is and what did I do for fun. Almost as soon as she says it she remembers my life of crime and laughs saying she understood why I did it now. She laughs saying I was bored silly and there is nothing more dangerous than a bored me. She leans over and kisses my cheek. I smile at her.

     

     

    We stop in front of the last place I wanted to show her.

     

     

    “Shane this is an empty lot.”

     

     

    “Yeah but once upon a time this was my warehouse. Me and my boy Mark lived here. Havoc tried to kill me and the place went up in flames. I barely got out.”

     

     

    “I can’t believe the father of my son is named Havoc……Shane what am I supposed to tell Marco when he asks who his daddy is?”

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    2. Thank you. I have loved every word and every unbelievable twist and turn. You are amazingly talented and I will miss your writing immensely. If you ever decide to write again I hope I will be lucky enough to get to read it.

    3. You absolutely MUST keep writing here. This series has kept me enthralled ever since I stumbled across it. I really enjoy your writing style. Please stay with us!SincerelyDawn (from Atlanta)

    4. Absolutely love how you wrapped up this series. I can’t fuckin’ believe its over. It was a fan-tab-ulous run. You actually got me to look into Nine Inch Nails music. Have to second Bigprisc’s comments, for you to let us know if you’ve written or publish anything in the future. Best of luck, hope we hear from you soon :-)

    5. Thank you for letting us into the mind of the genius that is You….your stories are awesome and even though you won’t be updating anymore, you will keep entertaining me cuz i will most likely read every single one of your stories like 20 more times. Awesome job lady…thanks again.

    6. I just wanna say: WHY, WHY, WHYYYYYYY? We r gonna miss you girl, A LOT!!!!!!!! :'(SHARMEN WILL ALWAYS ROCK BTW !!! “What we’ve found…..we can never stop….” NEW DAWN IM GONNA MISS U GIRL

    7. Why cant we have more than 5 stars to rate this stories…… :'(Im really gonna miss you….I am one of your lurkers, but im gonna miss you the same way as your BIGGEST FAN would be!!!!!

    8. I cant believe its over… really, I couldnt decide if I wanted to see an update or not. Im glad they finally got an ending that was well deserved. Every twist and turn was worth the while and I cant thank you enough for taking the time to write this and letting us in into your little world. I love this series of stories and I love you.

    9. GODDD I LOVE THIS I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU@@@@@@@@@ YES IM CRYING…. SHIT…I CANT BELIEVE THIS IS OVER …I AM SO GONNA MISS THIS…. MAN…. I FEEL THIS IS LIK ETHE END OF SHARMEN… LIKE TH EREAL END…. BECAUSE CARMEN IS NO LONGER ONTHE SHOW THIS GAVE ME HOPE. I WANT YOU TO KNOW I LOVED EVERY WORD YOU WROTE… EVERYTHING… THERE IS NOTHING HERE THAT WAS NOT PERFECT. I KNOWYOU HATE HAPPY ENDINGS BUT I THANK YOU FOE THIS ONE… I MEAN I LOVE YOU LOL!!!! IM CRYING AGAING IM GONNA START READING IT AGAIN…. MAN IM IN LOVE3 WITH THIS AND MANNNNNNNNNN IM GONNA MISS YOU SO MUCH FOR REAL NO JOKE. BUT I RESPECT YOU DECISION. BUT IF YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND… PLEASEPLEASE PLEASEPLEASE KEEP WRITING!!!!!!

    10. I have a few more stories of yours to catch up before I read this last chapter. But I just wanted to say that I love all your work and like to thank you for giving us a refreshing story of Sharmen. Knowing that this is your last one, makes me sad. But all good things come to an end and we all have to live on. many many kudos to you!

    11. Thank you… thank you for the wonderful series of stories. I love them all, and I love you. I wish you would continue writing, but i can understand when real life kick in. Thank you again for this wonderful months when i get a fix everytime. I’m sorry i dont leave a comment often (too lazy to sign in), but for the last chap i knew I have to. Your story is the best I have ever read. And I hope that you will continue writing, whether it is Sharmen fics, or other stories. And if you ever publish anything, please remember to inform us, your dear fans.

    12. A great end to a great story. It’s good to see that people with troubled pasts can exorcise their demons and live a fulfilling life. It’s an idea that I hold very dear. Seeing this evolution of Shane and of Carmen, seeing them learn that the present is much more precious than the past, seeing them endure the trials surrounding them, between them, and within themselves, well, it’s something else. Very few fics have had such an acute focus on character and character development as this saga had. You did an amazing job with that, really unbelievable. And the plot, well, that was frequently twisted and always mind-blowing. I frickin’ loved every word of it. So, thank you for sharing this story, and thank you for putting all this time and effort into it. And here’s hoping that the writing bug bites you again sometime. (ps: I haven’t forgotten your other stories, missy. [wink])

    13. I haven’t read anything but the author’s note yet, but I just wanted to say right away, thank you. There are not enough good things I can say about this creation, so I won’t attempt to. Just know that I appreciate the time, creative energy, and brilliance you gave to this story. I hope that this will just be a break for you, and that Shane and Carmen, or whoever (but you know that S&C are my favorite, and I’m pretty sure yours too) will inspire more from you. I guess I need to express my inner-pervert more often if it makes people write stories as great as this…You are incredible. Incredible. Thank you.

    14. my apologies for commenting so late.. but i couldnt bring myself to reading the story after i read the authorz note. well you are one gifted writer ive had a mixture of various feelings springing from within me with every word, every sentence you’ve ever written… youre stories were by far the best EVER!.. i wish u luck in everything you do.. your stories will be missed ALOT!! i for one will always always be ur fan… THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING!!

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