I went downtown and got into Ralph Lauren… which I know is
very weird of me to go into those shops, but I thought this is a very special
night so spending a bit of cash is no biggie…  anyway I asked the sales assistant to help me
out a bit with this “sharp and charming” look… at the end I got my self a new
very nice black savile row cotton blazer, Foulard dots pocket square, a very
light pink Carlton French shirt, a black riveria cotton pants, some cufflinks and
a black leather lace up shoes. None of those chunky ones. I would say that im
dressing like im going to the Oscars tonight. Well… it is a pretty big night.

I looked at my watched and it’s already 5.45pm, I guess all that thinking whether or not I should
have a pocket square really took its fucking time. I drove back to my apartment
and put out the things that I’m wearing tonight on my bed… I’m gonna look
pretty damn good. Heh. I’ve calmed my self down and went to the living room and
took out some old pictures. How could I be so freaking blind all this time?
There’s this one picture of me and the rest of the girls taken by Marina
years ago when me and Alice just become friends. We were all sitting at the
same table we’re still sitting now. I’m sitting at the far left looking at the
camera while holding a beer bottle up, and at the far right was Alice
just looking straightly at me not noticing the camera, while all the others was
posing and smiling at the camera. I remember that day, she was still such a
schoolgirl sort of. She smiled a lot and was all nervous around me. I guess I
know why now. I thought that if Alice
made a move back then, she would have been one of my one night stands. I thank
god that she didn’t because that would have be a biggest loss in my life.

I shook all that thoughts out of me; all I know now is to
win her heart tonight. I went and have a good old’ shower. After that still
with a wife beater on and a towel around my waist, I made tea with honey just
to calm my throat down. I relaxed a bit thinking what her reactions going to be
like after I sing. After two teas and all the thinking in the world I got into
my room and changed. I looked at my self in front of the mirror, putting some
product on my hair making it very simple. To me I look I pretty damn sharp and
charming. I got all the stuff that I needed and headed to The planet.