“hey…” I said to her

“hey…um are you ok?” she asked me

“yeah…I’m fine, why?” I told her

“just um…I dunno you’ve been kind of distant lately…” she said softly

“I uh…I know…um, listen do you want to go somewhere?” I asked her, realizing we had to talk about well…everything

“yeah…sure…” she said walking to the other side of my car and getting in…we got into the car and there was pure silence for a while until Spencer spoke

“are you going to talk to me?” she said bluntly, I didn’t answer “come on Ashley…are you mad at me or something? Because what ever I did I’m sorry…” she said acting nervous “I’m not mad at you Spence…” I told her “…I uh, I told Anna that I love her…” I said keeping my eyes on the road…Spencer turned away from me and looked out her window…we pulled up to the beach and got out of my car, we walked side by side then sat down under the pier next to each other looking at the water crashing onto the shore

“are you gonna talk to me?” I asked her “Spence please…” at this point I was begging her “please talk to me…” she didn’t say anything, she just put her hand on top of mine and squeezed…I looked at her hoping she’d say something

“do you love her?” she asked still not looking at me

“I don’t know…” I said looking at my feet

“what do you mean you don’t know Ashley…” she said

“Spence…when I’m with her, I feel like I have a girlfriend…but then when I’m with you, I don’t even think about Anna…” I admitted

“what are you saying Ashley…” she said…I brought my eyes up to hers and once they met I spoke again “…I don’t know Spencer…” I leaned in a little, and so did she…she whispered against my lips “Ashley…” I whispered back “I know Spence…” then she closed the gap between us, the kiss lingered when she pulled away thinking it was a mistake and I didn’t want to do it, then I leaned back into her and kissed her again…that one lingered a little longer, when we broke apart she leaned her forehead against mine and smiled causing me to smile