I turn my head to look at the other end of the bed.. I reach across and touch the pillow Spencer was on. I bring it up to my chest and rest my head on it, bringing my knees close to my chest. I breathe in the pillow, it still smelled like her, Spencer’s perfume lingering on it.

It brings flashes of our one night together to mind, as they fill my mind I feel tears come down my face at the possibility that because of last night I might lose Spencer for good.

I don’t know why I never realized just how special she is. Sure I knew she was beautiful and nice, by everyone’s standards and her own Spencer would be considered miss goody two shoes.

I lay back against the headboard her pillow still in my arms. I close my eyes briefly and I picture Spencer in my mind and just from that I feel my stomach do somersault just from my thought of her. It almost doesn’t even matter that I’m confused at how I suddenly developed these feelings for her. All I know is she makes me happy. I just have to make Spencer realize that it could work between us.

Good luck with that

I think to myself. I don’t know if or when she plans to break up with Ashley, I just hope she knows it’s the best thing she could do for herself. I have to get ready for school soon, I don’t know what Spencer’s reaction at school is going to be but from the way she left here so abruptly it’s not going to be easy to get her to take a chance on me.

Regardless of her relationship with Ashley I can’t stop what I feel for her. I can only hope for the best and hope I don’t end up with a broken heart. It’s still a shock to me that it’s little sweet Spencer Carlin that stirred these feelings in me. I never would of guessed it in a million years.

I don’t know. Everything feels rushed , maybe it’s not a good idea to pursue Spencer.

I just can’t help the feeling of wanting to be more with her. I ask myself
Could there ever be an us?