I took in deep labored breathes as I continued to stare off into space. I don’t think I can do this it’s not right for me to get her involved. She wouldn’t understand anyways, god she is just so beautifully innocent. Where would I even begin, if I tell her everything I know she would go through hell to try and help me. But no one can help me others have tried and failed. They always end up getting hurt; I can’t allow anyone to ever hurt her especially because of me. I’m not worth it….

“Ash……Ashley?”

“Huh” I look to see Spencer brushing her fingers along my cheek, creating the most soothing cool sensation. I stopped the motion of her fingers and pressed her palm flat against my flesh relieved in the comfort I felt from her single touch.

“I’m here for you baby” Spencer’s breathe washes over my face as I just realized how close we had become. My brain is running on over drive I’m not even noticing my surroundings, I have to make it all stop.

“But I don’t know how”

“What don’t you know how to do” Oh I didn’t mean to say that out loud but I suppose it’s too late now. I can just explain certain parts of the much larger picture; it might lift some of this weight I feel off my chest. Yes I can do this

“I….ummm I’m not sure where to start it’s all just so complicated” I breath out

Spenser lightly brushed her lips against my own before pulling back and I groaned softly on losing the contact.

“Come here” Spencer requested with open arms motioning me to come to her. I moved forward wanting to be near her as I got into arms length Spencer guided me around to where my back was pressed up against her front. I relaxed back into her as she wrapped her arms around my waist inter locking her fingers, much like the position I had put her in when it was her turn to share.  I sighed in contentment being in her arms.

“Use somebody!”

“What?”

“That’s it the song you are always humming when you’re happy or comfortable or try to make yourself comfortable. Its Use Somebody by that one band Kings of something…”