I keep on fallin’

 She closed her eyes again, thinking about the time, long ago, when falling meant having someone to catch you… She remembered the kiss, that illicit first kiss in the gallery, when she had come to claim her earring…

In and out of love
With you

It was as if waves of memories started to wash over her… Yet she was to focus on her date… Not only to tell Alice about it, but also as a lifeline, a way to survive… Because what did those pictures in her head mean? What were they worth but good memories she cherished and held close? How was it possible that suddenly even the bad memories had become… Less bad… Not that the things they had done to each other to so successfully ruin the relationship hurt any less… It was just that, even though those times had been agony, it didn’t compare to now because there had been hope. Always there had been hope. They had had bad times…

Sometimes I love ya
Sometimes you make me blue

But they had never stopped loving each other… Correction, she had never stopped loving Bette… Even if sometimes she had acted like it, had considered it, had thought it to be true… She now knew it had been fear that had made her act like that… But it didn’t make her regret it any less…

Yet… That day, right before she had met Jodi, Bette did tell her that she loved her too… She just wasn’t in love with her anymore. There must be some truth in the song… Bette had fallen out of love with her…

Off course you could leave it to Alice to drag Tina out of her stream of thoughts, and as the song continued in the background, the funny blonde attended her friend to her presence by shouting in her ear:

99 bottles of beeeeeerrrrr on the wall!!!!!!

Tina gasped and sniggered, both at the same time, causing a moment of breathlessness. She put Angie so she could sit down, and felt her knees give way when she reached the couch…

Sometimes I feel good
At times I feel used

Still overwhelmed by flashes of her life with Bette, the good and the bad, the amazing love-making, or just holding her hand under the table in The Planet and the way Bette had acted when her father came to visit, or how she, unaware of it herself, would make decisions for the both of them.